I've had mono the last couple of weeks...it's been hell. I'm trying to sleep, it never happens. I'm trying to occupy myself....doesn't happen. My friends like do not want to see me or visit me....so tats cool..i don't know....Like you could at least talk back to me and not neglect me you know? The other day my "friends" said they were gonna stop by, don't think I don't understand why they did it, but the matter of fashion how they told me was hurtful...so whatever, I forgive but I am no longer forgetting my friends actions. No wonder I don't hang out with people as much... PEOPLE SUCK, that's why...they are cruel, hurtful, and mean. I just want to be a bit happier. Nicholas does that for me well though :) I really appriciate all that he is doing for me...it's really nice..
My mom found my birth control the other day..it was hell we had a big fight, left the house all because she favor's"God's" opinion, or u know the people who wrote the bible and etc...that talk with my mom and dad was so much fun. I think they "know" me and Nicholas are going to break-up..but I don't want that, theres something about us that makes sense, we have a balance u know? Our relationship is still at its beginining tats y we have so many kinks, everyone thinks we fight too much, but it's because our relationship is at a higher level, a lot of adults do not connect at the level me and him do. We got in a bad fight though the over day he grabbed my arm and I pulled away so I like clawed him and as everyone knows my nails r really bad, so I clawed him and accidentally cut him =/ and it made him really upset. We were fighting bc he was doing this project and was up till 4 AM and ws talking to this girl Liz about it till 3 AM wtf rite? so I was upset by it...she hasa little crush on him, I can tell, how cute rite? It's not like it matters, it just pisses me off, he didnt NEED to talk to her, but w.eee and she gav him his numba and he gave him hers, I deleted it from his phone though, he said it was for the project but the next thing I know he said it didnt matter so why the fuck did u have to give it to her?!?!? my god, he has the stupidest logic, alrite i know u dont care she likes u, but obviously i do bc it's annoying, idk wht evs...i wish i was there with him.......
I wish people didn't suck, when I'm done being sick, i am gonna hang out with my friends A LOT, i need some more aweosme memories. It sucked my party was cancelled but whevs.
Dear Mono,
YOU SUCKKKKK ;p. I just wish I could resttt...
Im too focused on school to relax, rediculous eh? But tht's me =]
ooh & btw I miss you all and i miss RUNNNINGGGGGG aghhh this is killing meeee, I get tired from walking up and down the stairs it's insaneee. haha I'll be posting more soon
Love,
Richelle Pennington :)

Hold on to me
I don't feel like letting go
I want to feel
That feeling most don't know
Show me the meaning
To why there's a "you and me"
Because I found that place...
With who I want to be with
Today
 

& that's the kind of love I wish to give him...I want to bring that fire into peace..

If i had one day left to live. I would go to church & skydive.
& tell someone how much i love them.
& tell my family my secrets.how much they mean to me. how much i apericate them & really respect them. & really apologize for all ive done wrong. i would show what a great person i am.
& i would make sure my family there okay & how much i love them.
& i would make sure my friends learn to live life how its ment to be lives with me in there heart & them in mine.